And that makes you larger than life. Went prawning + fishing today.
Caught a total of 1 seabass fish + 27 prawns. :D

Accomplishment.

I like to spend some days like today just enjoying the calm laid-back fishing village/kampong, away from the buzzing busy town. It gives me a awesome feeling.

Motivated, I am.

3 years from now, I already have in mind what I am going to do after getting my diploma.
Plenty of things that I would have accomplished.
Not gonna say what are they because I'd like to keep them to myself.

Goals, are very important.
Now I feel more complete.

I guess that knowing where you want to go/be in the future, what are you really working towards to, makes one feel like they have a direction in life. Like, they aren't living their life for nothing, or not knowing what are they doing in their life. In that case, why are you living for?

" I'm living for the sake of living. ", smart answer. Not.

It's pretty hard to explain how it feels, but yes, knowing what you really want in life is an awesome feeling.

It definitely takes time to finally know/decide the goal that you wanna work towards but I would suggest realising it earlier. Even just being 17, I feel that I have already lost a lot of opportunies in life just because I didn't know what I wanted in my life. I just lived my life as the days past by.

Foolish, foolish, foolish.

Nonetheless, don't regret not having done things/doing things.
Regret and take action to not make the same mistake again.
& not, regret and wallow in the past and regret even more.
What for?
Look forward and into the future. Make short term plans as well as long term plans.

Cliche as it is,
"If you fail to plan, you plan to fail."

Agreed much.

Any thoughts?

CIAOS!  ¶ 12:58 AM 0 Comments

  To say it again and mean it. Well, here's a shoutout to the people who made me happy on my birthday :

THANKS PEOPLE!

to,
avis, eian, johan, fang, wenhao, chubby, billy, lyn for surprising me,
also not forgetting the people who wished me. :D
special thanks to peiwen/B2, who called all the way from aussie to wish me. very much appreciated!

On another note,
I'm so sorry 2/4 people for cancelling the steamboat today.
Wanted a more wholesome group to come along.
We'll have one in about 2 weeks' time.
Cheers people. :D

Well, school have started for me.
New classmates, new classroom, new facis, new modules.
It gives me another insight on the world, different kinds of people that I've never met, exists.
Thought that I could get away from the childish boys secondary school life, guess I'm back again.
Boys, when will they ever learn?
Respect is a word they would never understand. It's time to grow up, people.
Guess I'll be good on my own, solitary can be peaceful.
Nonetheless, it's too early to say.
We'll see.

All I can do now is smile.

CIAOS!  ¶ 11:29 PM 0 Comments

  I see friends shaking hands, saying ' How do you do? '. No picture today I guess but I figured out that the world is still filled with people who just wants to make your life miserable. Having said that, I do not wish to be involved in such immature and chilish situations where I am vulnerable in getting hurt.

Work politics, love it or hate it?

Read the newspaper today and I found out that my country has around 2 million PRs.. and the real citizens of this country are a mere 1 million more than them. Wow.

I feel threatened.
Jobs, jobs, jobs.
Money, money, money.

Being only 17(in 1 more day's time), I can't help but already feel that we, citizens of this beautiful country, are losing our ricebowls to these PRs and other foreign talent. Look what education has fortunately reminded us of reality. Goodness gracious.

In probably 5 tp 7 more years to come, I will officially join the workforce in this country and compete with possibly 6 million more or so other citizens, PRs and foreign taletns. Not only that, my country had just signed with another country and more foreign workers are coming to join us in our big happy family.

I'm so worried.
Nonetheless, I believe that if we have the skills, the potential and the determination, no matter how many people are there here, the real citizens will still have our place. (:

No offence though, to PRs and foreign talents.

I'm just lacking of confidence that I will lose to you guys. =/

On the flip side of things, I feel that no matter what, humans are still very hypocritical. Who isn't? Probably at some point of your life, perhaps?

On a happier note, I've decided on a couple of dishes that I would like to learn how to cook!

- laksa
- fried carrot cake
- char kway tiao
- hokkien mee
- almond logan dessert
- creamy garlic butter sauce pasta
- har kow (crystal prawn dumplings)
- Mee Siam
- Mee Goreng
- Mee Rebus
- Chwee Kueh

and also, master my orh luak. It's still not up to standard. esp learning how to make the awesome chilli sauce.

I feel really motivated to cook good food and I believe that knowing how is a great skill and knowledge to have.

Not really interested in baking cookies or cakes because I don't really have a sweet tooth.

I'm a 'salty, oily, super unhealthy food' person.

I can forsake materials things if I have to choose between food beyond heavenly and things that I have on my wishlist.

I'm a glutton and we all know it. (:

P.S. There's a resident lizard in my room and it's freaking me out. =/

1 more day!

Speaking of which, all my earphones are spoilt. XD

CIAOS!  ¶ 12:42 AM 0 Comments

  1st attempt. Here is my first attempt on cooking ORH LUAK aka Oyster Omelette.

Verdict is,

Not cripsy, not salty.. a little bland.
Overall, oysters are yummy, eggs are yummy too.
But starch is bland.

There is still room for improvement!

Happy happy happy~

Mission Accomplished!

And by the way, I've gotten my first birthday present yesterday.

A Braun Buffel wallet!




It's damn awesome. I love it.

Thanks Avis. (:

1 more week for a very special day!

CIAOS!  ¶ 10:25 PM 0 Comments

  But two eggs don't last like the feeling of what he needs.
Yes, I have decided.

I'M GOING TO COOK ORH LUAK SOOON!
Hopefully this wednesday or thursday. (:

The prefect marriage of just-cooked-to-perfection oysters, eggs, a somewhat crisp finish of the flour and starch mixture is what to expect from this dish. - Lily's Wai Sek Hong

CIAOS!  ¶ 1:46 AM 0 Comments

  Use your muscle, carve it out, work it, hustle.
Work suddenly seems so tiring. My legs are aching.

2 more weeks and a very speical ocaasion is coming.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm a person whom people easily forgets...

Was having a really great conversation the other day with Eian, and sometimes I wonder is it me or do people really forget about me sometimes? Talk to me when they need help and after that, don't contact me anymore. I'm not really sure.

I do know a couple of people who don't forget me though.
My mum, my dad, my family..

You might say I watch too much of the taiwan drama, " Fated to love you ". But sometimes, do you also ask yourself this question? What do other people think of you as? Do they only think of you when they need help or do they think of you just so naturally because you are someone significant? Taiwan dramas are usually filled with nonsense, love and comedy. "Fated to love you", on the other hand, not only makes me laugh, makes me cry and makes me roll my eyes, it also makes me think about what do other people think of me as, how cruel the reality really is. It's painful to think of it, but when you really do think of it, ' hey! its so true. '

On the other hand, I don't usually contact other people because I'm afraid of being one-sided. Like, I'm afraid of talking and contacing someone but the person doesn't want to keep in contact with me in the first place. I do not wish to place myself in a position where I am being very irritating because of this.

I can tell you I'm sincere in being friends but I also can tell you that I do not trust anyone 100%.
I'm a skeptic and a cynic when it comes to people.
Afterall, I can't read minds and I do not know what the other party is thinking of most of the time.

After having said all this, it's contradicting, I know.
I'm weird that way.
I believe some of you are weird this way too.

Everyone is perfectly imperfect because it is 100% that no one is perfect.
I'd like to be remembered sincerely without any motive but I, on the other hand, do not make the effort to show others I'm sincere about remembering their existance.

I'm a walking contradiction and I believe a lot of us are.

Think about it.

CIAOS.  ¶ 12:34 AM 0 Comments

  I don't want to live on the moon.
I realised that I have been sleeping at 6am every single day and I fear that I am harming my body really badly.

Insomnia.

I am actually addicted to a taiwan drama right now, Fated to love you.

Have you ever sat on a chair one day and look at your mum and realise how much she has aged?
I have.

The other day when I didn't sleep the whole day, I accompanied my mum downstairs for breakfast, at 630am.
There we were, sitting and eating our breakfast, chatting happily. Nothing ever crossed my mind that my mum and I were actually growing older by the second. And my mum was growing older by the second. When she left the table to purchase food to tabao back, seeing her standing at the stall, waiting for the stall holder to give her the food, I looked at my mum and observed. Never did I realise how much more haggard and old my mum has becomed. I felt emotional.
So, the guilt-stricken me, I offered to carry all the food home while she went off for her own activities early in the morning.
That ended there.

Though thinking about it makes me more motivated to help my mother out.
Sighs.

Sometimes we say things we don't mean and hurt others by mistake.
When we realise it, it may be too late.
I know I've said this before but,
Cherish the ones you love before it's too late.

CIAOS.  ¶ 1:36 AM 0 Comments

  Fear or dread, we stop exisiting and start living. I've decided to blog as regularly as I can and so, here I am.

How does $11/hr sounds like?
Sounds like AWESOMEEE!!, doesn't it?

That's not the main point.

Today's topic is focused on the GIRLS.

*takes out loud-hailer*

GIRLS!

Please be more aware of your BUTT CRACK.
It's getting increasingly annoying to see females bending/squatting down to pick up/look at/take picture of something and they reveal their BUTT CRACK.
Not only that, I noticed that there will be guys esp. ah peks staring at their BUTT CRACKs.

HOW DEGRADING!
HOW SHAMEFUL!

Can't imagine what those ah peks are thinking of when they stare at your BUTT CRACK.

So please ah, please girls.
It's okay to wear short shorts/low hip jeans..

Just be more aware of ur BUTT CRACK when you are bending/squatting down.
Do not reveal and attract unnecessary attention, unless you want it.
Now that's being slutty.

Okay, blog post done.

CIAOS!
  ¶ 10:02 PM 0 Comments

  Russian Roulette is not the same without a gun
I can't believe I'm actually at home and surfing FACEBOOK.

A weather like this, a good day to sleep.
NO! can't let it happen.

Panic at the disco has split up for quite some time now and I feel so sad about it. Like everything has changed. How different people have different perferences and some things just don't go their way and now they are pursuing what they think is what they want, but for the fans of PATD, its not fair to them because when a band is split up, the band is not the same band we once knew anymore.

Now my view on ryan has totally changed. His kind of music isn't the type that I would listen to.

WHERE's THE PANIC! AT THE DISCO THAT I ONCE KNEW!

Well, here's Ryan and Jon's new band, The Young Veins new song
CHANGE - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AMKnaYyuiss

Panic at the disco's new song,
NEW PERSPECTIVE - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ebeKZGsadUU
there's a Music Video on MTV.com you can go check it out.

I figured that if I had to choose, I would choose Brendon over Ryan.

Sighs.

CIAOS!  ¶ 5:43 PM 0 Comments

  When your only friends are hotel rooms. I finally got a new haircut.
EMO.

Well, went to see Ms Ho's concert just now with kar, chubby and billy.
It was super duper AWESOME! Loved it.

Billy was super nice to treat us to supper.
I can officially tell you that I am BROKE. Dead-BROKE.
Thanks Billy. (and I still owe you money)

I finally got to eat my Magnum ice cream.
Yes, I wanted the "Royal-treatment".
*waves like the queen*

I missed Auntie Lucy on Channel 8. dammit.

Am gna make mooncakes this holidays. Snow-skinned ones.
Anticipate it.

Haven't been blogging anything constructive these days. It's always the usual "I know nobody actually reads this crap but I still wanna blog about it" stuff.

I am SO boring.
Jamming session soon and youtube covers soon.

CIAOS!  ¶ 3:20 AM 0 Comments